Jul 142004

“But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.” (St Paul, 1 Corinthians 13: 10)

A famous Hollywood actor goes to see a casting director for a screen test. The director tells him he doesn’t need to do the test as the movie’s in the bag. There is only one catch.

“What is this catch?” the actor says.
“What we are prepared to pay you.”
“How much?”
“$1 million, are you kidding?” the actor says. “Don’t you know who I am? In my last movie I was paid $30 million.”
“Yes, yes, I know,” the director sighs. “But in this production company we pay everyone the same.”
“Are you seriously telling me everyone else gets the same fee?”
“What about the extras?”
“Yes, the extras, runner, cleaners, cooks, directors, producers, everyone in this production is paid the same – $1million.”

The actor is stunned. Maybe someone’s playing a trick on him, one of those candid camera type shows. Any minute now someone’s going to jump out and say “you’ve been framed” or something similar. Moments pass.

“Well?” the director says. “What do you think?”
“You can’t be serious?” The director nods.
“OK tell me this. If we’re all being paid the same, how come you want me to play the lead role, huh?”
“Because this role is perfect for you.”
“Bullshit! I’m a method actor, I can play any role!”
“Oh really? You’re a 6ft 2” tall male, right? Do you think you can you play the role of a 5 ft tall woman?”
“I see your point.”
“Look, we think you’re perfect for this role and we would like you to play it but it’s up to you. Why don’t you talk it over with your agent and let us have a decision in 24 hours?”

The above is of course fictitious. It is an allegory that represents what life is about. We are all equals. We may be playing different roles but it doesn’t mean anyone’s role has more value than the other. Yet society as we know it has distorted this truth. We have created hierarchies that let people believe they are superior or inferior. In truth, we are all the same.

Just because I am the same as everyone doesn’t mean I’m a part of anyone. You see we are so used to seeing things in parts: our bodies, others, reality and so it goes on. Then we move to what we consider to be wholeness but it’s again about seeing others as being a part of you. Being the same means I have infinite resources, I am Infinity. I am whole and complete. So is Tom, Dick, Harry, Jane etc. I have written before that Source is like an original CD which has been pressed zillions of times so each fan has the exact replica. In the same way I am Infinite Spirit, yet I am also uniquely Enocia. What makes me unique is the way I use the infinite resources I have. I don’t need anyone to validate me or to make me whole as I am already whole; and vice versa. Yet we go around with this programme that we are this huge jigsaw and that other people are parts of you. This illusion leads to the belief that a particular someone is there to make you complete or to help work out karmic issues etc.

Another belief is that because each part is influencing the whole, one person that is enlightened will raise everyone to the same level…and we will all ascend together. Since parts have a tendency to disagree it will be a long wait until all the parts are in agreement in order for ascension to occur. Each person is already whole but in order for this wholeness to be realised s/he has to acknowledge it.

It is written that during Jesus’ time on earth, the mother of two of his disciples, James and John, approached him. She wanted him to let his sons sit beside him in his kingdom. Jesus response was: “Ye know not what ye ask. Are ye able to drink of the cup that I shall drink of, and to be baptised with the baptism that I am baptised with? They say unto him, We are able.”
Then Jesus said: “Ye shall drink indeed of my cup, and be baptised with the baptism that I am baptised with: but to sit on my right hand, and on my left, is not mine to give, but it shall be given to them for whom it is prepared of my Father.” (Matthew 20: 20-23)

Jesus was acknowledging that we are the same but to have the kingdom you have to work for it. Not work in human terms as having to earn it, but to realise that you already have it. No one can do it for you. Thus you don’t go around expecting to be saved when you haven’t done what is necessary to free yourself, even if all you need do is realise you are Freedom.

In my view, one reason why people see reality in parts is because of the illusory nature of the universe. The universe is one big mirror. Say someone knows her infinite nature. She only has to have one thought and it is reflected in infinite ways. Now, some images might appear as human forms. If you’re not careful you’re going to read into the reflection and believe it to be something when it is nothing but a reflection. So if someone reflects what you have been thinking or believe, the mirror image might think that it was your destiny to meet up, have a relationship, walk the path etc.

A few days ago I discussed the concept “soul mates” by email with a friend, stating I no longer believed in it. On my way home just as I got off the bus I saw another university friend. (What is this? Three college friends in three weeks, talk about triple reflections). After the initial euphoria she told me she’d met someone on holidays and she believed he was her soul mate etc. We talked for about 15 minutes and then we hugged and said goodbye.

I could so easily have fallen under the hypnotic spell and tried to bring the mirror image to life. If my world view was “everyone is a part of me” I would try to grab on to her by prolonging the relationship. I had the good sense to recognise this college friend as a mirror image reflecting my thoughts about soul mates. Nothing else. It was interesting to observe the mirror image reflected exactly what I didn’t believe in. This is the reason why we are warned to focus only on what we want or believe rather than what we don’t want.

I’ve been in relationships where I’ve believed the other to be part of me that makes me whole and when the relationship ended it was pure torture. I even questioned why a part of me would reject another part. Because I asked the question I got answers, many possible answers, which lead me round in circles until….I arrived at the conclusion that I am whole and the other is whole. After that there were no regrets, no condemnation, no sorrow, just gratitude and love.

I believe that the best anyone can do for one’s ‘brother’ or ‘sister’ is to regard the other as whole. It is the only loving thing to do.

This leads to the question: if we are whole, why do we share? When you are whole you share not because you are in a barter exchange but because it is fun to give of Self. Life is like the fictitious production company I described earlier where wholeness gives wholeness to another. In this drama called life some people are more adept at reading some maps than others, just like I like writing, while others like music. I know I have the knowledge of music and can sing if I choose to but I love what I do so I share it. It doesn’t mean I know more than another. I share knowing full well that the other has full knowing. And there’s another profound reason why I write – because it’s something to do.

We are here to create abundant life yet we’ve got side-tracked by the reality we live in and busy trying to wake up others to the truth of being, teach others etc. Well just for the record, I’m not teaching anybody anything. You already know it all. You are already whole. So guys, let’s all realise our wholeness and have fun.

A word of warning, remember that what I’m writing could very well be another of my delusions; and if so I’m holding on to it, at least for today. Tomorrow who knows what other delusion I might pull out of my hat.

Playing a part I am; appearing as a part, I am not.

I am the One…the Only,