Sep 252004

“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” (1 Corinthians 13: 11)

I’m sure you all remember being a child, right? Your parents taught you about the world we live in, the do’s and don’ts. You were taught skills necessary for your survival on earth such as personal hygiene, cooking and cleaning, and how to get on with others. You went through the education system in order to gain skills that would lead to becoming a responsible citizen. As an adult you are expected to know how to look after yourself and provide for yourself. These skills are very useful if you regard the universe in a material way.

I see the universe as spiritual. Thus, each of us is well equipped to experience the spiritual universe. The scriptures put it this way:

“So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

“And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.” (Genesis 1: 27-28)

What the allegory is saying that God has given us all we need to experience life: God has given us Himself. For me, God is Silence, which is power, love, wisdom and all good. I believe the spiritual path is about waking up to the fact that we already have all we need; and learning how to use the “tools” we have been given. The divinity within is your teacher/guide.

Now, while everyone is equal, we are all unfolding in different ways, based on motivation. I believe people come in three categories of “awakening”; “awakening” meaning realising that we are Spirit. There are those who are not awake; those who are in the process of awakening; and those who are awake. I believe the spiritual “path” is tailored for the individual. There are those in the process of awakening who need “spoon-feeding,” and those who are on the path of self-realisation. With self-realisation you are aware of who you are, so you learn how to use what you’ve got.

Another way to put it is there are those who need others to save them and others who know that the saviour is already within. The teacher or saviour is Inner Silence. There are many different spiritual disciplines out there and many teachers, yet they all agree on one thing, that God is within; and to know God, you have to practise being God – “be still and know that I am God.” The process of awakening and staying awake is allowing Inner Silence/God within to come to life.

What do I mean by letting the Silence come to life? God is life but not in the sense we experience life. God operates in Silence which is everywhere and yet we are not aware of His presence. To make God/Silence become alive is to experience a state of reality when you are constantly aware of His presence. One method I’ve used is meditation.

In the initial stages of awakening, for those using meditation, people have various states of illuminations based on belief. Some experience images such as Jesus, Krishna, Shiva, Buddha, angels, guides, various symbols and other light entities; while others experience a bright light. These are sometimes accompanied by sounds. You experience a sense of timeless awareness and a feeling of loss of identity. I have experienced bright light and light entities.

The next “level” of awakening is when you arrive at a “place” that is free of all concepts, beliefs and forms. You have reached Inner Silence, the goal of all goals. As Buddhism teaches, Inner Silence is “empty.” With practise, Inner Silence comes to life and becomes your reality. You can go on your daily business living in this state of consciousness. You find that you no longer need to rely on the physical senses to experience reality, which are not reliable. The Silence is beyond the mind. It is empty and yet full. In my experience, I find the Silence will transmute Itself into words that I can understand. However, I would say 99.99999999% of the time, communication is silent i.e. no words, pictures, feelings or sounds. It is the nature of Silence to work in silence, and the result is projected as a physical reality. As Jesus teaches:

“But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.” (Matthew 6: 6)

One thing I’ve found is that I have to be very careful about what I hold in thought, since the Silence is alive and creates it instantly. I recently played a game with a friend on a particular discussion forum. He pretended to be my agent while I was a movie star. We sent posts back and forth. I could have kept the game going for a long time but I had to stop. Why? Because the character came to life in my thoughts. The character started telling me about her life and what I should write. This is one reason why I don’t write fiction. I would rather have the perfect image of myself come alive than some fictitious character.

When the Silence came to life within me, I was more or less left to get on with things. That’s because I realise the Silence is Who I am. So what happens is that I, as Silence, send out an intent or prayer to the Silence that I am, and the Silence is able to manifest the appropriate conditions necessary. When I was a “child” Spirit, I would pray and expect God to do the work necessary. There came a time when I was expected to “put away childish ways” and use the tools I already have. It still means trusting and surrendering to the power within. At least I now know I am surrendering to mySelf.

Yesterday, my mother asked me to buy her bubble bath on the way home. She has a particular preference which has to be bought from a particular supermarket. While she was speaking to me I saw an image of myself going into the supermarket and knowing they were out of stock of her favourite brand. I couldn’t possibly tell her that Inner Silence had given me a preview and I should buy it another day! She was bound to say “prove it.” Besides, I had to prove it for myself. Later, I went into town and saw another branch of the supermarket, where I thought I could buy the bubble bath. I knew they didn’t have it. I went in anyway and they didn’t have what I wanted. On my way home, I stopped off at the supermarket I had “seen” in thought. They had other types but not the one my mother wanted. I knew they would have it the following day.

As I was walking down the streets yesterday I saw someone who reminded me of my cousin. I haven’t seen him since I was a child, nor have I thought of him in a long while. It was as if he was standing right where I was. When I got home, my mother told me she’d received a telephone call earlier that her nephew has been critically ill. Now it made sense why he had come to mind.

I’ve had numerous examples when the Silence gives me a preview of events and I go out and test it and it’s been correct. As an “adult spirit,” I’m expected to use what I have, which is Inner Silence. In all my ways I am to be Silent, trust in the Silence and take the necessary actions that “I” give myself. There are times when the Silence will create through other people or manifest in other ways. I have found that trusting in Silence is trusting in mySelf.

For me, meditation is what has brought the Silence to life. I realise that Silence is the inner alchemist who does the work.

Spiritual maturity means “putting away childish” ways and trusting Inner Silence to do the work.

I am Silence,

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