Sep 082004

I now send all my emails as blind copies. There are times though when I need to double-check whether I have missed out someone on the list, but I’ve already pressed “Send.” The problem with sending emails “blind” is that the names are not recorded on the sent copy. So what I usually do is press the “Back” arrow to check out the list.

Anyone who uses the Internet knows that the “Back” function takes you to your previous task. In the case of the email, it takes me back to the list of people I sent the email to; and if I press “Back” again it takes me to the email text. But this doesn’t mean the email has not been sent out. The email has already gone out and there’s nothing you can do about it. (I’m aware that some email providers have “Recall” functions which recalls emails, provided they haven’t been opened, but this facility is not available in Yahoo).

Now what does the “Back” function remind me of?

Emails are like our thoughts. Once you’ve pressed “Send” it’s gone. The email might bounce back, get lost somewhere or be delivered to someone else’s Inbox as junk mail, but it has to go somewhere. In the same way, the moment a thought is released, it’s out there creating according to the intent behind the thought.

What if you change your mind and regret the thought? Is there an Undo button to delete the thought? Can you regret thinking something when you are being yourself? Besides, in the Presence of who I Am, back is forward, forward is back, left is right, up is down, inside is outside, and round and round we go. My actions are based on what I am in the present. In another moment, I might think a different thought which, in effect, is making a new choice.

While pressing the “Back” button might remind me of who the email went to, it doesn’t recall the email that was sent out. Just as well there is no “Back” facility to consciously keep track of all my thoughts. For me, regretting a thought or action is pointless. I would rather focus on being who I am now. In the presence of Love that I am, there are no regrets.

I reckon the “Back” button is useful though when browsing the Internet in terms of giving the user a point of reference. In the same way, “looking back,” in the agreed meaning of the term, is only a point of reference – a reminder of where you are and where you want to be.

My motto in life is this: if a memory or thought is not bringing me joy or useful insights, there’s no point in “looking back.”

Forward-looking-backward with no regrets,
I am Enocia