Profound and tranquil, free from complexity,
Uncompounded luminous clarity,
Beyond the mind of conceptual ideas;
This is the depth of the mind of the Victorious Ones.
In this there is not a thing to be removed,
Nor anything that needs to be added.
It is merely the immaculate
Looking naturally at itself. (The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying, Sogyal Rinpoche)
All is Light.
When the Light was first revealed during meditation, I lost all sense of “I”; I was a drop of water merged into the ocean. Words cannot describe the bliss I felt, so I won’t attempt it. As I never realised one could experience Light in my every day life, I saw life as polarised: the ordinary life that seemed devoid of bliss; and my real life as Light that I could only experience during meditation. Unfortunately, as I wasn’t able to experience the Light all the time, I was depressed a lot of the time.
As time went on things started to make sense. Slowly, I began to realise that my life experiences were the Light in manifestation.
What is this Light?
The Light is the essence of all there is. Buddhists call it “Buddha Nature.” Hindus call it “Brahman” or “Self.” Christians call it God. The Light is always perfect and untouched by human experience. The Light is boundless; It has no limits.
It is the same Light that clothes itself in the many form/costumes you see around you and beyond. A while back, a friend told me he had started a journal at Vampire Freaks, a website for Goth enthusiasts. As I found his journals funny and witty I decided to open an account so I could leave witty comments. I ended up using my journal as an outlet to share funny anecdotes.
If I had identified myself as a Goth, I would have wanted to wear the clothes, makeup, listen to Goth music, etc. But it wasn’t my style. I was only playing at being a Goth.
Could it be what we consider to be evil is no other than identifying oneself as one’s race/nationality/culture? My race is a costume I, as Light, use to express Self. I am not a body; I am not an experience; I am Light.
Let’s say I have a moment of madness and forget who I am and identify myself as the outfit I have on. Just because I’ve forgotten who I am as Light doesn’t mean the Light stops being what It is. The Light is infinite Power and has no limits. There is no other power but the Light. Thus, if I identify myself as a Goth, then I have infinite power to perpetuate this experience. The Light will always remind me that I am not a Goth, I am Light. If I don’t listen then I shall continue to have limitless experiences that come with identifying myself as a Goth. In other words, all things are possible with Goth.
How do I live as the Light?
There are two ways I walk as the Light: as the Impersonal Light where all is one; and Light as Love.
I find that when I am experiencing life as the Impersonal Light, I tend to see the world in a very detached way. The problem with this perspective is there is a lack of connection; it feels like you’re a robot. You love everyone the same way; you treat every experience the same. Now, there are times when this way of seeing is very useful. But when I want to enjoy a good meal I find it’s fun to enjoy the taste. This is when Light as Love comes into play. Love as Light is my own unique expression of the Impersonal Light of being. Light as Love is my essence. Light as Love enables me to experience and appreciate the food, otherwise it’s just going to taste like nothing. There’s nothing worse than having chocolate that tastes of nothing. Believe me, I’ve tried it and it’s nothing to write home about.
As I’m writing this, it is mid-Summer. The last two days have been described as hot. I say “described” because it is not how I’ve experience it. When I identify myself as the Impersonal Light, I feel neither hot nor cold. I see heat and cold as mental states that you can identify yourself as and experience as your reality. When I am not identifying myself as any state, all that is left is Light that is without form and void, and profound bliss.
However, there are times when it’s blistering, yet I’ve got my cardigan on. My mother thinks I’ve got issues. She wonders how I can wear a cardigan when it’s 30 degrees outside. What she doesn’t realise is that the Love that I am knows that I prefer cool weather, so I end up feeling cool breeze, cool enough for me to wear a cardigan.
The other day when I went to an Internet cafe, the only seat available was right underneath an air-conditioning vent. I put my cardigan on. After a while I noticed the same air-conditioning was blowing hot air. Was it my imagination? I reckon it was Love meeting my needs according to my preference.
When you live with the realisation that all is Light and Love, the notion of good and evil is meaningless. Why? Because you stop experiencing things and people as solid. You see forms as ideas of Infinite Light. Ideas cannot harm you. On the bus the other day, a woman trod on my foot as she was getting off, but she wasn’t aware that she had. While I felt the contact, her foot felt like nothing. No point bringing this to her attention when nothing happened.
Just as I am unique in my expression of the Light, with practise one can tune into how others express the Light. For instance, as I was walking home two days ago, I had a fleeting thought of a friend who lives in the neighbourhood. A few minutes later I saw her walking towards me. I hugged her and told her I’d just picked up her vibes. The vibes I had felt was her Light as Love. I’ve been able to pick up when someone is thinking about me by picking up on their Light signals.
For me, living as the Light has been about knowing myself as both the Impersonal Light and the Light as Love. As the Impersonal Light, there are no distinctions; all is One. To express life, I am Light as Love.
All is Light and Light is Love.