We all are participants in the race for sustenance, wealth, power, name and fame. It is when a person gets disgusted at some point that he stops and ponders about himself. Then his objective of life is changed from a worldly to a spiritual pursuit. He has to find the mystery of life ab initio through his own experiences.
In differential calculus one is asked to find the derivation of a function ab initio though there are set formulae to get results quickly. The idea is that one should not forget basics. Similarly when some lucky person happens to fall in the race, he has to trace back his steps to find his original instinct. It is quite similar to returning to the age of adolescence. This age is usually known for a carefree life and/or an innocent behaviour. It is lost in the race for possessions and in worldly pursuits.
In childhood there was no idea of the various dividing factors like being poor or rich, good or bad, beautiful or ugly, ‘I and my’ or ‘you and yours’, etc. Besides, there was no idea of future planning, or sin, and virtue either. With the development of the so-called intellect various differences in our dealings are adopted. Here, family members teach an innocent child to indulge in safeguarding his interests, competition, status, etc. The child picks up those traits required for survival and the fulfilment of his aspirations and he is never allowed to go back to his childhood instinct. As long as his sailing in the tug-of-war of mutual selfishness is smooth, he continues until he loses something of which there is no replacement. Other losses like death of a near and dear one, health, wealth, or character may be recuperated with the passage of time, but the loss of faith and belief in one’s life is most serious and needs a thorough investigation ab initio.
Normally a worldly mind always looks through a window of selfishness and happens to see the scenes which are ugly in a real sense but irresistibly attractive. As a result there are mental agonies in the form of constant fears and doubts, misunderstandings in various dealings, disbelief, hatred, atrocities, hallucinations etc. Just before death a man is mostly dissatisfied on account of various shortfalls in his achievements, and finally he is dragged away from the objectives of his possessions.
All’s well that ends well. Actually, returning to the stage of childhood in the last part of life makes one innocent enough to mentally enter the world of satisfaction, love and compassion again. Naturally, to attain this stage again one has to go beyond feelings of materialistic loss besides the removal of various vices.
SP Sharma, India