I am a male person. I was in unique state of mind at the dead of night when I felt in an ecstasy that my body is becoming His body including mind and intellect. Soon after I wrote in my notebook: “I am dying now and in morning I shall born as a new person.” I am a male person and exchanging my body with Him means that in the morning I shall become female and serve Him.
In the first night of honeymoon a wife has complete devotion and submission of her body, mind and soul to her beloved husband like a Sati (See: Feasting the senses on a personal God, 2nd para). In arranged marriages in India, a girl starts thinking the day her marriage is fixed. She keeps her ears fixed on what her parents are talking about her would-be husband. She remains engrossed in the thought of him, repeats his name in the mind day and night. By the time she actually meets her husband she has most of the knowledge about him from all sources.
It is said that Guru is like a father and God is ours would-be eternal husband. He can accept infinite number of such qualified daughters brought up by Guru. In discipline of devotion, a stage comes when devotee feels himself/herself as daughter of his/her Guru and God as her would-be husband (or paramour). In Hindi language a word Pati is used for husband and its meaning is saving her honour and protects her in all situations. Only God is true Pati for all of us.
In 1977, I had surrendered to formless God (Please see my article: Death – a great spiritual teacher, indeed). Now I have surrendered to Guru (Please see: T…..R…..R…..R…..BHAMM – witnessing a divine body!). He is my God since 2002 (Meeting my higher self), guiding and protecting me like a father. This time while dying I didn’t call God but my Guru.
Now God is not God but He is a child in my care given by Guru and remains with me round the clock. Mother Mary also had such virtuous Child for taking care of.
SP Sharma, India
I was born on 8 December 1945 and had self-realisation on 20 August 1977 at the age of 32. Thereafter I automatically shifted to the devotion path and a sort of relationship developed with God. Starting as a servant to God, then friendliness with God and then started liking God in child form. There is nothing left except to enjoy divine love and feel its presence in the whole world.